1 00:00:05,920 --> 00:00:08,320 ♪ (STIRRING INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 2 00:00:12,160 --> 00:00:16,720 ♪ (FEMALE VOICE HARMONIZING) ♪ 3 00:00:18,640 --> 00:00:21,280 (BIRDS CHIRPING) 4 00:00:25,600 --> 00:00:28,080 (THUDS ECHOING) 5 00:00:30,440 --> 00:00:33,000 (SIRENS BLARING) 6 00:00:38,040 --> 00:00:40,040 RUBEN PALLISTER: What can I say about Niall Kennedy? 7 00:00:43,720 --> 00:00:44,760 He's funny. 8 00:00:48,200 --> 00:00:49,280 He's odd. 9 00:00:49,760 --> 00:00:51,280 (INAUDIBLE) 10 00:00:52,800 --> 00:00:54,080 RUBEN: He's awkward. 11 00:00:56,320 --> 00:00:57,480 He's determined. 12 00:00:58,720 --> 00:01:00,960 (THUD ECHOING) 13 00:01:01,040 --> 00:01:02,160 RUBEN: He's devoted. 14 00:01:05,519 --> 00:01:07,080 He's self-sacrificing. 15 00:01:09,800 --> 00:01:11,000 He knows what he wants... 16 00:01:12,920 --> 00:01:14,039 and he takes it. 17 00:01:14,120 --> 00:01:16,600 (THUD ECHOING) 18 00:01:16,680 --> 00:01:18,160 ♪ (MUSIC FADES) ♪ 19 00:01:19,080 --> 00:01:23,080 ♪ (LOW TENSE MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 20 00:01:23,160 --> 00:01:26,080 I remember the first time I met Niall Kennedy. 21 00:01:26,160 --> 00:01:29,200 I was only a kid, around seven at the time. 22 00:01:32,680 --> 00:01:35,400 The wee bastard was terrified of me. 23 00:01:35,440 --> 00:01:38,120 I suppose it didn't help that I would terrorize the wee fucker... 24 00:01:38,200 --> 00:01:41,280 -(SCATTERED LAUGHTER) -...but he was such easy prey. 25 00:01:41,360 --> 00:01:44,080 Always wore a shirt with the top button done up. 26 00:01:44,160 --> 00:01:45,440 Made his head look massive. 27 00:01:45,520 --> 00:01:47,520 -(CHUCKLES) -(GUESTS CHUCKLING) 28 00:01:51,000 --> 00:01:53,759 We'd play hide and seek, and he was so scared of me, 29 00:01:53,840 --> 00:01:55,759 I would find him in the most random of places. 30 00:01:55,800 --> 00:01:59,520 Under cars, on top of bookcases, 31 00:01:59,600 --> 00:02:02,280 at the end of the road in other people's gardens. 32 00:02:04,000 --> 00:02:06,600 I remember this one time, it was raining, 33 00:02:06,680 --> 00:02:08,600 and I'd long given up finding him, 34 00:02:08,639 --> 00:02:11,039 but the poor wee bastard was so committed to the game, 35 00:02:11,120 --> 00:02:12,480 he developed pneumonia. 36 00:02:12,560 --> 00:02:15,240 -(LAUGHS) -(GUESTS CHUCKLING) 37 00:02:19,160 --> 00:02:20,440 RUBEN: And there was this other time. 38 00:02:20,520 --> 00:02:23,120 He said, "You hide, I'll seek." 39 00:02:23,200 --> 00:02:27,120 And I hid up in the attic space under some random tarpaulin. 40 00:02:27,880 --> 00:02:28,920 But he never came. 41 00:02:31,079 --> 00:02:33,600 When I walked down the stairs half an hour later, 42 00:02:33,680 --> 00:02:35,840 the wee bastard was tucking into my birthday cake. 43 00:02:35,920 --> 00:02:37,920 -(GUESTS CHUCKLING) -(CHUCKLES SOFTLY) 44 00:02:42,240 --> 00:02:43,720 But that's Niall Kennedy. 45 00:02:45,440 --> 00:02:46,760 He knows what he wants. 46 00:02:48,960 --> 00:02:49,960 And he takes it. 47 00:02:57,720 --> 00:02:59,800 Here, stand. 48 00:03:05,000 --> 00:03:06,720 Come on. Stand. 49 00:03:09,480 --> 00:03:11,040 Come on, how long's it been? 50 00:03:11,120 --> 00:03:13,120 -Let's go. -(CLEARS THROAT) 51 00:03:17,720 --> 00:03:19,760 All right. That's it. 52 00:03:20,880 --> 00:03:22,680 Mm-hmm. Hmm. 53 00:03:26,680 --> 00:03:27,760 So... 54 00:03:29,520 --> 00:03:31,120 here's to Niall Kennedy. 55 00:03:32,160 --> 00:03:33,960 A man who knows what he wants... 56 00:03:36,000 --> 00:03:37,040 and he takes it. 57 00:03:37,120 --> 00:03:38,960 ♪ (MUSIC INTENSIFYING) ♪ 58 00:03:39,040 --> 00:03:41,520 -Call me Daddy. (MOANS) -(MOANS) Yes, Daddy. 59 00:03:41,600 --> 00:03:45,000 -(GRUNTING) Yes, Daddy. (PANTS) -♪ (DISCORDANT MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 60 00:03:45,079 --> 00:03:48,079 -(MOANS LOUDLY, GRUNTS) -(MOANS, GRUNTS) 61 00:03:49,000 --> 00:03:51,040 (PANTS) 62 00:03:55,680 --> 00:03:57,280 (CAR DOOR OPENS) 63 00:03:57,320 --> 00:04:00,440 ♪ (DISCORDANT MUSIC CONTINUES) ♪ 64 00:04:11,600 --> 00:04:13,400 ♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ 65 00:04:20,440 --> 00:04:21,519 (LAPTOP POWERS DOWN) 66 00:04:23,840 --> 00:04:24,840 (SIGHS) 67 00:04:29,360 --> 00:04:31,800 -Hey, can I print something off? -Mm-hmm. 68 00:04:34,320 --> 00:04:36,080 (CLEARS THROAT) 69 00:04:36,120 --> 00:04:40,159 (CLEARS THROAT) Oh, you are out of credit, I'm afraid. 70 00:04:40,200 --> 00:04:41,800 (SIGHS) Look. 71 00:04:41,880 --> 00:04:44,480 This is the proposal to my follow-up novel. 72 00:04:44,560 --> 00:04:45,840 I don't wanna send it over email 73 00:04:45,920 --> 00:04:47,120 'cause I don't trust my publisher 74 00:04:47,200 --> 00:04:49,760 to read it properly on screen. Can you do me a solid? 75 00:04:50,480 --> 00:04:52,880 -Just this one time? -(SIGHS) 76 00:04:52,960 --> 00:04:54,120 (WHISPERS) I don't know, Niall. 77 00:04:54,200 --> 00:04:55,880 The boss hates it when I do this. 78 00:04:55,960 --> 00:04:57,240 (SIGHS HEAVILY) 79 00:04:59,720 --> 00:05:01,480 -Well, the boss is a prick. -(CHUCKLES SOFTLY) 80 00:05:02,480 --> 00:05:04,920 Come on, do this for me. Hmm? 81 00:05:05,640 --> 00:05:06,960 Promise I won't ask again. 82 00:05:09,360 --> 00:05:11,120 Fine. Last time, okay? 83 00:05:11,640 --> 00:05:13,160 Thank you. Thank you. 84 00:05:19,800 --> 00:05:22,440 -♪ (MELLOW STRING MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ -(PRINTER WHIRRING) 85 00:05:25,680 --> 00:05:28,120 ♪ (MUSIC RISING) ♪ 86 00:05:30,920 --> 00:05:32,960 ♪ (MUSIC FADES) ♪ 87 00:05:33,040 --> 00:05:36,680 -(PAGES RUSTLING) -(DANIEL CLICKING TONGUE) 88 00:05:48,640 --> 00:05:49,880 So, what do you think? 89 00:05:50,680 --> 00:05:53,800 Um... (SIGHS) 90 00:05:53,880 --> 00:05:56,480 Just not really sure what it's all about, you know? 91 00:05:56,560 --> 00:05:58,200 I mean, the journey the main character goes on. 92 00:05:58,280 --> 00:06:01,240 Well, you know, it's all about being true to your roots, 93 00:06:01,320 --> 00:06:02,480 not selling out on yourself. 94 00:06:02,560 --> 00:06:04,080 Well, I mean, if getting an Oxbridge education 95 00:06:04,160 --> 00:06:05,160 is selling out yourself, 96 00:06:05,240 --> 00:06:07,360 I hate to think what other impossible standards... 97 00:06:07,440 --> 00:06:08,680 (LAUGHS) ...this guy holds himself to. 98 00:06:08,720 --> 00:06:10,000 Look, it's a proposal. 99 00:06:10,080 --> 00:06:11,440 All these things will come out in the wash. 100 00:06:11,480 --> 00:06:13,040 Mm-hmm. Yeah, you said that about your last book, 101 00:06:13,120 --> 00:06:14,600 and I hate to break it to you, buddy, 102 00:06:14,680 --> 00:06:17,120 but I think there might be a problem with your filter. 103 00:06:17,160 --> 00:06:18,720 -(SIGHS) -DANIEL: Not to mention the fact 104 00:06:18,800 --> 00:06:21,360 that it's clearly been cobbled together between one too many nights out. 105 00:06:21,440 --> 00:06:23,000 What? No, it hasn't. 106 00:06:23,840 --> 00:06:28,680 You spelt "Glasgow" with a seven. 107 00:06:30,040 --> 00:06:31,240 (SIGHS) 108 00:06:34,320 --> 00:06:35,760 Look. (SIGHS) 109 00:06:35,840 --> 00:06:38,080 All we're looking for here, Niall, is a little more... 110 00:06:39,120 --> 00:06:41,000 authenticity when it comes to your writing. 111 00:06:41,080 --> 00:06:42,960 My writing is authentic. Come on, Daniel. 112 00:06:43,040 --> 00:06:44,880 You read my first book. It was straight from the heart. 113 00:06:44,960 --> 00:06:46,440 The one about the boy who tries to communicate 114 00:06:46,520 --> 00:06:48,400 with his deceased father. What was authentic about that? 115 00:06:48,480 --> 00:06:49,440 Well, all of it. 116 00:06:49,520 --> 00:06:51,640 My dad died when I was young. I never knew him. 117 00:06:51,720 --> 00:06:53,360 Well, that was evident from the reviews. 118 00:06:55,040 --> 00:06:56,800 Look, you've just got to try opening yourself up 119 00:06:56,880 --> 00:06:57,920 a little bit more. 120 00:06:58,000 --> 00:06:59,360 It's what they all say, Niall. 121 00:06:59,440 --> 00:07:02,280 The key to a good career, in all of this, 122 00:07:02,360 --> 00:07:05,040 is learning how to tell your own story. 123 00:07:05,120 --> 00:07:06,320 Oh, do they now? And why's that? 124 00:07:06,400 --> 00:07:07,720 DANIEL: Well, it's quite simple, really. 125 00:07:08,960 --> 00:07:11,080 Write about what you know. 126 00:07:11,160 --> 00:07:13,440 ♪ (UNSETTLING MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 127 00:07:22,720 --> 00:07:23,840 (SIGHS) 128 00:07:25,400 --> 00:07:27,720 (KEYBOARD KEYS CLACKING) 129 00:07:37,320 --> 00:07:39,440 (KEYBOARD KEYS CLACKING) 130 00:07:54,920 --> 00:07:57,640 ♪ (MUSIC BUILDING) ♪ 131 00:07:57,720 --> 00:08:00,560 ♪ (MUSIC SWELLS, FADES) ♪ 132 00:08:07,440 --> 00:08:09,280 (MEN MOANING) 133 00:08:14,880 --> 00:08:16,160 Hello. How you doing? 134 00:08:20,200 --> 00:08:22,400 -(MAN 1 MOANING) -(MAN 2 MOANING) 135 00:08:23,280 --> 00:08:24,280 (MAN 1 GRUNTS) 136 00:08:24,360 --> 00:08:26,560 -(BUTTON CLICKS) -(ZIPPER WHOOSHES) 137 00:08:29,400 --> 00:08:31,720 ♪ (UNSETTLING MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 138 00:08:33,600 --> 00:08:37,320 (PANTS) Yeah. (CHUCKLES) 139 00:08:39,280 --> 00:08:43,480 ♪ (MUSIC REVERBERATES, FADES) ♪ 140 00:08:43,559 --> 00:08:44,760 -Fuck! -(BELT CLINGING) 141 00:08:44,840 --> 00:08:45,960 Fuck! Gus! 142 00:08:50,000 --> 00:08:54,280 GUS: Wait! Wait! Niall! Please! Please! 143 00:09:00,520 --> 00:09:02,840 (PANTING) 144 00:09:02,920 --> 00:09:04,520 Well, this has got to feel good, right? 145 00:09:06,160 --> 00:09:07,280 Not really. 146 00:09:09,520 --> 00:09:10,840 You won't tell anyone, will you? 147 00:09:11,360 --> 00:09:12,880 No. 148 00:09:12,960 --> 00:09:15,240 But only because describing it would place me at the scene. 149 00:09:15,320 --> 00:09:16,640 Yeah, yeah, I hear you. 150 00:09:17,720 --> 00:09:19,960 Plus, it's the doggers’ code, isn't it? 151 00:09:20,040 --> 00:09:21,760 "Wherever we wheel, our lips are sealed." 152 00:09:23,840 --> 00:09:25,240 I've never heard that before. 153 00:09:25,280 --> 00:09:26,880 No, it's because I made it up. 154 00:09:26,960 --> 00:09:30,400 Look. Do you fancy going for a pint or something? 155 00:09:30,480 --> 00:09:32,640 -Uh, no. I should, uh... -GUS: Come on, man. 156 00:09:32,720 --> 00:09:34,400 I've just been caught buggering in a car park 157 00:09:34,480 --> 00:09:36,600 in the dead of night by the kid I bullied at school. 158 00:09:36,680 --> 00:09:38,440 I'm standing here with no shoes on. 159 00:09:38,520 --> 00:09:40,680 Look at my socks, Niall, for Christ's sake. 160 00:09:41,520 --> 00:09:42,720 Wallace and Gromit. 161 00:09:46,480 --> 00:09:48,160 Accept my humbling, will you? 162 00:09:50,600 --> 00:09:51,880 Come for a bloody drink. 163 00:09:56,320 --> 00:09:59,880 ♪ ("THE SADDEST SOUND" BY THE DEVASTATIONS PLAYING OVER SPEAKERS) ♪ 164 00:09:59,960 --> 00:10:05,760 ♪ Is it when a man cries? He's had more than he can take ♪ 165 00:10:05,840 --> 00:10:06,800 (CLEARS THROAT) 166 00:10:06,880 --> 00:10:10,240 ♪ Is it when a man screams ♪ 167 00:10:10,320 --> 00:10:14,240 ♪ That his life's gone to hell? Or is it when... ♪ 168 00:10:14,320 --> 00:10:16,520 -GUS: Fuck, I hate lager. -Me too. 169 00:10:17,360 --> 00:10:18,680 (CHUCKLES) 170 00:10:18,760 --> 00:10:20,040 (CHUCKLES SOFTLY) 171 00:10:25,680 --> 00:10:27,280 So, are you, um... 172 00:10:28,720 --> 00:10:30,640 -out? -(SCOFFS) No way. 173 00:10:30,720 --> 00:10:31,720 I'm not even gay. 174 00:10:31,800 --> 00:10:33,280 You sleep with men all the time, don't you? 175 00:10:33,360 --> 00:10:35,840 -I mean, you must do, going to a place like that? -It doesn't mean I'm gay. 176 00:10:35,880 --> 00:10:37,800 Would be gay if I fell in love with them. 177 00:10:37,880 --> 00:10:39,600 Oh, you're one of those, are you? 178 00:10:39,680 --> 00:10:41,920 A man so straight, he fucks men. 179 00:10:41,960 --> 00:10:44,080 Are you so vegetarian too you eat meat? 180 00:10:44,120 --> 00:10:45,640 (CHUCKLES) 181 00:10:45,720 --> 00:10:47,560 Yeah, it's a fucking mess is what it is. 182 00:10:47,640 --> 00:10:50,560 Ah, you're fine. It could be worse. 183 00:10:51,920 --> 00:10:53,600 Could be married with kids. 184 00:10:57,200 --> 00:10:59,080 I always had my suspicions, you know? 185 00:11:00,200 --> 00:11:02,800 -You used to love a wedgie. -(SCOFFS) 186 00:11:04,520 --> 00:11:06,880 Yeah, it was a whole mix of things. 187 00:11:06,960 --> 00:11:10,160 Plus, your brother put me bang to rights over all that, remember? 188 00:11:10,240 --> 00:11:12,640 Pissed sideways for about three months afterwards. 189 00:11:12,720 --> 00:11:14,960 I didn't condone that, really. 190 00:11:16,520 --> 00:11:18,400 I saw him the other day, you know. 191 00:11:18,480 --> 00:11:21,120 Still puts the fear of fuck in me. 192 00:11:21,160 --> 00:11:24,160 -♪ (UNEASY MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ -Sorry, what did you say? 193 00:11:24,240 --> 00:11:26,320 Your brother. I saw him just the other day. 194 00:11:28,040 --> 00:11:29,120 What? 195 00:11:30,920 --> 00:11:32,880 -Where? -In the street. 196 00:11:32,960 --> 00:11:34,320 No, but wait, it can't have been him. 197 00:11:34,400 --> 00:11:37,560 -He's still inside. -Well, nah, mate. He got out. 198 00:11:37,640 --> 00:11:39,160 We spoke for ages in the end. 199 00:11:39,240 --> 00:11:41,280 He'd met some chick. He was working-- 200 00:11:41,320 --> 00:11:43,600 Wait, I'm sorry. He's working? 201 00:11:43,680 --> 00:11:45,720 Yeah, yeah, yeah. Up on the rigs in Aberdeen. 202 00:11:45,800 --> 00:11:47,320 Three months on, three months off. 203 00:11:48,600 --> 00:11:50,000 Even gave me his card. 204 00:11:54,960 --> 00:11:56,040 (SOFTLY) Jesus Christ. 205 00:11:59,440 --> 00:12:00,680 What the fuck's a slinger? 206 00:12:00,760 --> 00:12:02,800 I've no idea, but you can keep it, 207 00:12:02,880 --> 00:12:04,680 just in case there's a tracker in it or something. 208 00:12:04,760 --> 00:12:07,440 (SCOFFS) You're not winding me up here, are you? 209 00:12:08,800 --> 00:12:11,480 -He got out? -Yeah, mate, I promise. 210 00:12:12,880 --> 00:12:13,920 He got out. 211 00:12:16,160 --> 00:12:18,120 ♪ (MUSIC RISING) ♪ 212 00:12:18,200 --> 00:12:19,680 (BANGING ON DOOR) 213 00:12:21,240 --> 00:12:23,240 (NIALL KENNEDY BREATHES HEAVILY) 214 00:12:25,200 --> 00:12:28,360 It's Ruben. He's out. He's out of prison. 215 00:12:29,200 --> 00:12:30,800 ♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ 216 00:12:30,880 --> 00:12:32,160 What do you mean you know? 217 00:12:32,240 --> 00:12:33,200 -I know. -How? 218 00:12:33,280 --> 00:12:34,520 What, did Maura tell you? 219 00:12:34,600 --> 00:12:35,720 You're not still speaking, are you? 220 00:12:35,800 --> 00:12:38,480 -(SIGHS) Kind of. -What do you mean "kind of"? 221 00:12:38,560 --> 00:12:40,880 -I thought things were finished. -They are, Niall, 222 00:12:40,960 --> 00:12:42,520 but we still see each other from time to time. 223 00:12:42,600 --> 00:12:43,920 Yeah, but you didn't think to tell me 224 00:12:44,000 --> 00:12:45,080 that any of this was going on? 225 00:12:45,160 --> 00:12:47,160 Well, how could I, Niall? You're never bloody well here! 226 00:12:47,240 --> 00:12:49,080 -Well, you could have phoned. -You never pick up. 227 00:12:49,120 --> 00:12:50,800 I leave you four voicemails a week 228 00:12:50,880 --> 00:12:53,440 and never get anything back. The last one, 229 00:12:53,520 --> 00:12:55,120 I pretended I'd fallen down the stairs 230 00:12:55,160 --> 00:12:58,560 and was on my last dying breath, and you still didn't call. 231 00:12:59,560 --> 00:13:01,160 Well, I knew you were faking it. 232 00:13:01,200 --> 00:13:02,960 Was I faking my birthday, too? 233 00:13:05,000 --> 00:13:06,280 (SIGHS) Wait! 234 00:13:07,440 --> 00:13:09,880 I just don't understand what the plan was here. 235 00:13:09,960 --> 00:13:11,320 Were you just going to plot and scheme 236 00:13:11,400 --> 00:13:12,520 and hope I never found out? 237 00:13:12,600 --> 00:13:15,080 Oh, you make it sound like I'm enjoying it. 238 00:13:15,160 --> 00:13:16,760 I have deep facial contours 239 00:13:16,840 --> 00:13:19,240 devoted to the pair of you bloody idiots. 240 00:13:19,320 --> 00:13:20,880 I felt nothing was to be gained from you 241 00:13:20,960 --> 00:13:22,680 knowing anything about each other. 242 00:13:22,720 --> 00:13:24,520 It runs the risk of him killing you, 243 00:13:24,600 --> 00:13:25,880 or you dying from the worry. 244 00:13:25,920 --> 00:13:27,520 Yeah, but what if he finds out where I am 245 00:13:27,560 --> 00:13:28,720 and he comes looking for me? 246 00:13:29,680 --> 00:13:31,400 I highly doubt that. 247 00:13:31,480 --> 00:13:32,800 He's hardly going to bump into you 248 00:13:32,880 --> 00:13:35,080 on Brunswick Avenue, is he? 249 00:13:35,160 --> 00:13:37,480 Or in Kelvingrove Park men's toilets at 2:00 p.m. 250 00:13:37,560 --> 00:13:39,400 with your pants around your ankles? 251 00:13:41,160 --> 00:13:43,200 And you wonder why I don't come around here anymore? 252 00:13:44,080 --> 00:13:45,520 (FOOTSTEPS RECEDING) 253 00:13:45,600 --> 00:13:47,920 No. Wait, wait! (SIGHS) 254 00:13:48,400 --> 00:13:50,200 I'm sorry! 255 00:13:50,240 --> 00:13:52,880 Everything I did, I did to protect you, Niall. 256 00:13:52,960 --> 00:13:54,680 But I... I still don't understand. 257 00:13:54,720 --> 00:13:56,960 -When did he get out? -I don't know. 258 00:13:58,320 --> 00:13:59,880 -Two years, maybe. -Two years? 259 00:13:59,960 --> 00:14:01,440 -Are you kidding me? -That's a good thing. 260 00:14:01,520 --> 00:14:03,480 That's two years where he hasn't come looking. 261 00:14:03,520 --> 00:14:05,040 (SIGHS HEAVILY) 262 00:14:05,120 --> 00:14:06,160 But... 263 00:14:07,640 --> 00:14:08,640 Have you seen him? 264 00:14:10,360 --> 00:14:11,600 Yeah, a few times. 265 00:14:12,680 --> 00:14:15,480 Right. And did you mention me? 266 00:14:17,120 --> 00:14:19,760 -I may have. -Well, come on. What did he say? 267 00:14:19,840 --> 00:14:22,840 He didn't say anything. He just smiled. 268 00:14:23,680 --> 00:14:24,800 Okay, that's good. 269 00:14:25,400 --> 00:14:26,440 That's good. 270 00:14:26,480 --> 00:14:29,280 Was it like a... like a nice smile? Like a fond one? 271 00:14:29,320 --> 00:14:31,320 -Oh! Look. I can't lie to you. -♪ (TENSE MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 272 00:14:31,400 --> 00:14:32,680 Well, what kind of smile? Come on. 273 00:14:32,760 --> 00:14:34,240 I don't know! 274 00:14:34,320 --> 00:14:37,320 Sort of with his mouth and not with his eyes. 275 00:14:38,840 --> 00:14:42,720 You know, the one he tends to do before he kicks off. 276 00:14:43,400 --> 00:14:46,760 ♪ (MUSIC BUILDING) ♪ 277 00:14:46,800 --> 00:14:50,200 ♪ (INTENSE DISCORDANT MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 278 00:14:50,280 --> 00:14:52,040 (LOCK CLICKING) 279 00:15:09,160 --> 00:15:10,480 (BREATHING SHAKILY) 280 00:15:15,760 --> 00:15:18,120 ♪ (MUSIC FADING) ♪ 281 00:15:21,520 --> 00:15:23,400 (INDISTINCT CHATTER) 282 00:15:29,080 --> 00:15:30,520 JOANNA: I've only got ten minutes. 283 00:15:30,600 --> 00:15:32,200 Darren has to visit his mum's today, 284 00:15:32,280 --> 00:15:34,840 -so I've got the kids. -Yeah, no worries. Um... 285 00:15:36,560 --> 00:15:38,440 Well, look, Joanna, I don't want to worry you. 286 00:15:38,520 --> 00:15:39,560 Ruben. 287 00:15:40,320 --> 00:15:41,920 What? How do you know? 288 00:15:41,960 --> 00:15:43,760 JOANNA: Look. I didn't want to say, 289 00:15:43,840 --> 00:15:46,280 but I bumped into him not too long ago. 290 00:15:46,360 --> 00:15:48,160 He was doing this thing where he was going round 291 00:15:48,200 --> 00:15:50,520 apologizing to people he'd wronged in his past. 292 00:15:50,560 --> 00:15:52,360 NIALL: Christ, this is crazy. 293 00:15:52,440 --> 00:15:54,240 I mean, going round and saying sorry to people, 294 00:15:54,320 --> 00:15:55,480 that doesn't sound like Ruben. 295 00:15:55,560 --> 00:15:57,960 Well, he's been in prison for God knows how long, Niall. 296 00:15:58,000 --> 00:15:59,760 -That's bound to change someone. -No. 297 00:15:59,840 --> 00:16:01,880 No, people like him don't change, Joanna. 298 00:16:01,960 --> 00:16:03,760 Come on, you know that better than anyone. 299 00:16:03,840 --> 00:16:05,440 I don't know. 300 00:16:05,480 --> 00:16:07,800 -He seemed different. -Right. 301 00:16:08,800 --> 00:16:10,440 Wow, Jesus. 302 00:16:10,480 --> 00:16:12,880 He must be coming to me to apologize next, then. 303 00:16:12,960 --> 00:16:15,040 No. He said I was the last one. 304 00:16:16,160 --> 00:16:17,880 -Well, that's bullshit. -How? 305 00:16:17,920 --> 00:16:20,760 Because he owes me the biggest apology of his life. 306 00:16:20,840 --> 00:16:22,960 (WHISPERS) Don't do that, Niall! It's embarrassing-- 307 00:16:23,000 --> 00:16:25,240 He messed up my life, Joanna. 308 00:16:25,320 --> 00:16:27,640 And I dropped out of Oxford, I was so stressed with it all. 309 00:16:27,720 --> 00:16:29,280 I thought you didn't like the snootiness. 310 00:16:29,360 --> 00:16:31,200 No. (HESITATES) That too. 311 00:16:31,240 --> 00:16:33,840 It was... It was a combination of both. 312 00:16:35,400 --> 00:16:37,480 Look, I think you'd better put this out your mind, Niall. 313 00:16:37,560 --> 00:16:39,160 But how can I put this out of my mind? 314 00:16:39,240 --> 00:16:40,840 I mean, I just found out he's working some 315 00:16:40,880 --> 00:16:43,320 -fancy job on the rigs. -Well, what's wrong with that? 316 00:16:43,400 --> 00:16:45,640 Everything! What does it teach him about life 317 00:16:45,720 --> 00:16:47,640 if he comes out to some cushy existence? 318 00:16:47,720 --> 00:16:50,200 Meanwhile, I work my arse off every day 319 00:16:50,280 --> 00:16:51,600 and I'm rewarded with what? 320 00:16:51,680 --> 00:16:53,960 Dreg payments, handshakes and promises. 321 00:16:54,040 --> 00:16:56,320 Look, I get it, Niall. 322 00:16:56,360 --> 00:16:59,160 It's hard seeing someone you have so much history with 323 00:16:59,240 --> 00:17:00,920 doing so well. 324 00:17:01,000 --> 00:17:03,800 But maybe it's not the fact he's changed that bothers you. 325 00:17:05,760 --> 00:17:07,400 It's the fact you haven't. 326 00:17:07,480 --> 00:17:10,000 ♪ (UNSETTLING MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 327 00:17:12,720 --> 00:17:15,480 -(MOANS) -(SHUSHES) Shut the fuck up! 328 00:17:15,520 --> 00:17:17,640 ♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ 329 00:17:35,240 --> 00:17:38,680 ♪ (BROODING MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 330 00:17:45,040 --> 00:17:47,720 (BREATHES DEEPLY) 331 00:17:49,280 --> 00:17:52,440 (TRAIN ENGINE CHUGGING IN DISTANCE) 332 00:18:01,720 --> 00:18:02,720 (MOUSE CLICKS) 333 00:18:10,520 --> 00:18:11,640 (MOUSE CLICKS) 334 00:18:12,840 --> 00:18:15,840 (KEYBOARD KEYS CLACKING) 335 00:18:24,200 --> 00:18:28,920 ♪ (MUSIC RISES, FALLS) ♪ 336 00:18:50,160 --> 00:18:53,560 ♪ (BROODING MUSIC CONTINUES) ♪ 337 00:19:16,120 --> 00:19:17,720 (BIRDS CHIRPING) 338 00:19:21,440 --> 00:19:23,760 ♪ (MUSIC RISING) ♪ 339 00:19:27,760 --> 00:19:30,400 ♪ (MUSIC FADING) ♪ 340 00:19:39,640 --> 00:19:41,800 (CAR APPROACHING) 341 00:19:47,200 --> 00:19:50,400 ♪ (SUSPENSEFUL MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 342 00:19:54,040 --> 00:19:57,280 RUBEN: (QUIETLY) All right, chill. Breathe. Here. 343 00:19:58,040 --> 00:19:59,520 Let's get your stuff out. 344 00:20:04,360 --> 00:20:06,440 Come on. Here. Put this on. 345 00:20:07,680 --> 00:20:09,080 -There you go. -Thank you. 346 00:20:14,560 --> 00:20:17,520 -(RUBEN SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY) -(LAUGHS) 347 00:20:17,560 --> 00:20:18,640 (RUBEN LAUGHS) 348 00:20:24,200 --> 00:20:25,400 (SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY) 349 00:20:26,520 --> 00:20:30,040 ♪ (SHRILL DISCORDANT MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 350 00:20:36,640 --> 00:20:38,480 (KEYBOARD KEYS CLACKING) 351 00:20:41,240 --> 00:20:42,320 (MOUSE CLICKS) 352 00:21:12,360 --> 00:21:13,480 (MOUSE CLICKS) 353 00:21:13,560 --> 00:21:16,600 ♪ (BROODING MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 354 00:21:47,080 --> 00:21:48,920 ♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ 355 00:21:48,960 --> 00:21:51,360 (SIGHS) I think I know what this is about. 356 00:21:51,440 --> 00:21:54,360 -My comments the other night. -No, actually, it's not. 357 00:21:54,440 --> 00:21:56,360 I don't mind you being gay, Niall. 358 00:21:56,400 --> 00:21:59,080 -It's the way you go about it. -It's about Maura. 359 00:22:01,480 --> 00:22:02,560 Ah. 360 00:22:04,240 --> 00:22:07,000 What happened, Mum? Did the cancer come back? 361 00:22:08,920 --> 00:22:10,880 No. Um... 362 00:22:13,600 --> 00:22:15,760 She hung herself, as it happens. 363 00:22:16,960 --> 00:22:19,480 The rope snapped after about a minute. 364 00:22:20,680 --> 00:22:22,120 Left her near brain dead. 365 00:22:25,200 --> 00:22:28,240 Oh my God. Mum, that's awful. 366 00:22:29,720 --> 00:22:30,760 It's life. 367 00:22:33,440 --> 00:22:35,520 I mean, did she leave a note? 368 00:22:35,600 --> 00:22:38,680 Kind of. It was more of a list of things to do. 369 00:22:39,360 --> 00:22:40,800 "The cats are in the shed, 370 00:22:40,880 --> 00:22:42,360 the keys are under the plant pot." 371 00:22:42,440 --> 00:22:44,080 There was something so matter-of-fact 372 00:22:44,160 --> 00:22:45,520 about the whole thing, which... 373 00:22:46,480 --> 00:22:49,040 made it all feel worse somehow. 374 00:22:49,080 --> 00:22:51,360 Like it was just another thing to do that day. 375 00:22:54,760 --> 00:22:55,800 Well, look, I'm... 376 00:22:57,720 --> 00:22:59,480 I'm sorry I haven't been around much. 377 00:22:59,560 --> 00:23:02,160 I mean, you get it, right? The way you reacted? 378 00:23:02,240 --> 00:23:04,160 I was just shocked. 379 00:23:04,240 --> 00:23:05,800 I mean, how was I supposed to feel 380 00:23:05,880 --> 00:23:07,120 when my brother calls me to say 381 00:23:07,200 --> 00:23:10,400 he found you rogering another man in a public toilet? 382 00:23:11,480 --> 00:23:13,520 I blame myself, really. 383 00:23:13,600 --> 00:23:16,120 Should have spotted it sooner in you. 384 00:23:16,200 --> 00:23:17,800 It's like looking for my glasses, 385 00:23:17,840 --> 00:23:18,960 only to find they were sitting 386 00:23:19,040 --> 00:23:20,760 on the bridge of my nose the entire time. 387 00:23:20,840 --> 00:23:22,320 -(CHUCKLES) -(LAUGHS) 388 00:23:24,520 --> 00:23:25,960 So, that's why Ruben got back in touch? 389 00:23:26,040 --> 00:23:27,720 LORI KENNEDY: Yeah, he contacted me from prison. 390 00:23:27,800 --> 00:23:30,000 He needed my help looking after her. 391 00:23:30,080 --> 00:23:31,800 So, all this happened whilst he was inside? 392 00:23:31,880 --> 00:23:34,440 Yeah, but don't go blaming yourself, okay? 393 00:23:34,520 --> 00:23:36,480 She was in debt, she had aches and pains, 394 00:23:36,560 --> 00:23:37,840 all kinds of things. 395 00:23:43,000 --> 00:23:45,440 Niall, I want you to promise me here 396 00:23:45,520 --> 00:23:48,240 that you're not going to go blaming yourself. 397 00:23:52,120 --> 00:23:53,200 I promise. 398 00:23:54,000 --> 00:23:56,520 ♪ (SOMBER MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 399 00:24:08,080 --> 00:24:09,160 (MOUSE CLICKS) 400 00:24:13,000 --> 00:24:14,160 (MOUSE CLICKS) 401 00:24:33,920 --> 00:24:35,120 (MOUSE CLICKS) 402 00:24:42,360 --> 00:24:43,800 (KEYBOARD KEY CLACKS) 403 00:24:47,120 --> 00:24:50,680 (KEYBOARD KEYS CLACKING) 404 00:24:57,920 --> 00:25:00,680 ♪ (SUSPENSEFUL MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 405 00:25:01,640 --> 00:25:03,760 (KEYBOARD KEYS CLACKING RAPIDLY) 406 00:25:07,200 --> 00:25:10,200 ♪ (MUSIC CONTINUES) ♪ 407 00:25:14,160 --> 00:25:16,000 -NIALL: Hey, Stefan. -♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ 408 00:25:16,080 --> 00:25:17,640 You couldn't do me a favor and print this off? 409 00:25:17,720 --> 00:25:20,000 Sorry, mate. The boss was raging last time. 410 00:25:21,080 --> 00:25:22,400 Well, you couldn't ask, could you? 411 00:25:25,120 --> 00:25:27,000 -Nigel? -No chance. 412 00:25:28,760 --> 00:25:30,880 Sorry, bud. No can do. 413 00:25:32,760 --> 00:25:34,480 You're a sad man, Nigel. 414 00:25:35,600 --> 00:25:37,520 A sad, sad man. 415 00:25:37,600 --> 00:25:39,920 (KEYBOARD KEYS CLACKING) 416 00:25:56,280 --> 00:25:58,920 ♪ (INTENSE DISCORDANT MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 417 00:26:05,880 --> 00:26:07,480 (PANTS) 418 00:26:18,120 --> 00:26:19,240 (MOANS) 419 00:26:24,000 --> 00:26:26,320 -(KNOCKING ON DOOR) -♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ 420 00:26:30,760 --> 00:26:33,000 ♪ (UNSETTLING MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 421 00:26:38,080 --> 00:26:40,360 ♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ 422 00:26:43,680 --> 00:26:44,760 So... 423 00:26:45,560 --> 00:26:46,680 would you like to tell me 424 00:26:46,760 --> 00:26:48,720 why you were in the toilet cubicle 425 00:26:48,760 --> 00:26:50,320 with another man this afternoon? 426 00:26:50,400 --> 00:26:52,520 Well, it's quite simple, really. 427 00:26:52,560 --> 00:26:54,960 We were talking creative ideas, and we didn't want to disturb 428 00:26:55,000 --> 00:26:55,960 the rest of the library. 429 00:26:56,040 --> 00:26:57,840 You must think I was born yesterday. 430 00:26:57,920 --> 00:27:01,160 No. Don't worry, Nigel. I've never thought that. 431 00:27:02,640 --> 00:27:04,200 Look, you can't keep me. 432 00:27:04,240 --> 00:27:06,880 -So, if you're going to ban me, just ban me already. -NIGEL: No. 433 00:27:08,000 --> 00:27:11,080 It's a little more than a ban, actually. 434 00:27:11,160 --> 00:27:15,560 I was all for sexual liberation until it started seeping its way 435 00:27:15,640 --> 00:27:17,480 into our public services. 436 00:27:18,600 --> 00:27:21,040 ♪ (TENSE MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 437 00:27:23,040 --> 00:27:25,840 NIGEL: I started doing it when I saw the library coming up 438 00:27:25,920 --> 00:27:30,120 on Google searches, "Renowned cottaging spot." 439 00:27:30,160 --> 00:27:32,160 What are you intending to do with this footage, Nigel? 440 00:27:32,240 --> 00:27:35,880 Upload it online. Make an example of you. 441 00:27:35,960 --> 00:27:37,360 Stop anyone else trying it. 442 00:27:37,400 --> 00:27:39,400 What? No! Please. 443 00:27:39,480 --> 00:27:41,720 I mean, why me? I'm not the only one. 444 00:27:41,800 --> 00:27:43,360 You let the other guy go straight away. 445 00:27:43,440 --> 00:27:45,680 I know. Because you're the constant. 446 00:27:46,680 --> 00:27:47,880 (MOUSE CLICKS) 447 00:27:50,000 --> 00:27:51,680 (EXHALES SHAKILY) 448 00:27:51,720 --> 00:27:55,360 Okay, look. What can I do to make you not do this? 449 00:27:56,840 --> 00:27:58,240 You can pay your fine. 450 00:27:59,320 --> 00:28:01,200 What, my... my printing debts? Well, that's easy. 451 00:28:01,280 --> 00:28:02,520 What is it? Like, 20 quid? 452 00:28:02,560 --> 00:28:03,960 (SCOFFS) No. 453 00:28:04,000 --> 00:28:06,720 I'm looking here and the computer has it down 454 00:28:06,800 --> 00:28:09,960 -at 2,000 pounds. -What? That's ridiculous! 455 00:28:10,000 --> 00:28:11,400 Where you're getting those figures from? 456 00:28:11,480 --> 00:28:13,280 I don't know. 457 00:28:13,360 --> 00:28:16,080 All those books you sold online, perhaps? 458 00:28:16,160 --> 00:28:19,160 ♪ (MUSIC INTENSIFYING) ♪ 459 00:28:22,280 --> 00:28:24,080 Okay. 460 00:28:24,160 --> 00:28:26,240 I'm sorry. I've been in a bad place. 461 00:28:26,320 --> 00:28:28,760 But listen, there's no way I sold 462 00:28:28,840 --> 00:28:30,200 thousands of pounds' worth. 463 00:28:30,280 --> 00:28:31,600 No. 464 00:28:31,680 --> 00:28:35,040 But that's the rate I'm charging to buy them all back. 465 00:28:35,120 --> 00:28:36,160 Oh, come on, Nigel. 466 00:28:36,200 --> 00:28:38,000 You're a librarian, not a bloody lawyer. 467 00:28:39,880 --> 00:28:41,000 No. 468 00:28:42,800 --> 00:28:45,160 I'm just a sad, sad man. 469 00:28:46,200 --> 00:28:50,320 ♪ (MUSIC RISING) ♪ 470 00:28:50,400 --> 00:28:52,600 -♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ -I just need two grand. 471 00:28:52,640 --> 00:28:54,160 -Two grand? -I know it's a lot, 472 00:28:54,240 --> 00:28:56,080 but I'll pay you back ten percent on every pound. 473 00:28:56,160 --> 00:28:58,320 See it as an investment. Don't be like those stockbrokers 474 00:28:58,400 --> 00:29:00,040 who chose not to invest in Amazon. 475 00:29:00,120 --> 00:29:02,160 You have a high opinion of yourself, don't you, Niall? 476 00:29:02,240 --> 00:29:05,160 For someone caught buggering in a public toilet yesterday. 477 00:29:05,240 --> 00:29:08,640 Oh, come on, Joanna. I am begging you here. Please. 478 00:29:08,720 --> 00:29:10,760 Don't make me go to my mum. You wouldn't believe the things 479 00:29:10,800 --> 00:29:12,560 she said to me when I got caught the last time. 480 00:29:12,600 --> 00:29:13,760 Like what? 481 00:29:14,400 --> 00:29:15,560 She called me a pervert. 482 00:29:15,600 --> 00:29:18,320 Said she didn't mind a gay son, she just didn't raise a deviant. 483 00:29:18,400 --> 00:29:19,680 She said that? 484 00:29:21,120 --> 00:29:22,240 (CHILD WHIMPERS) 485 00:29:24,920 --> 00:29:27,720 Go on, Bubby. Run to Auntie. Go play. 486 00:29:27,800 --> 00:29:30,200 (INDISTINCT SHOUTING) 487 00:29:34,240 --> 00:29:35,360 JOANNA: Look, Niall. 488 00:29:36,840 --> 00:29:39,400 I still have a lot of love for you, 489 00:29:39,480 --> 00:29:41,760 but bailing you out every time you're in a tough spot 490 00:29:41,840 --> 00:29:43,880 is clearly not helping you turn your life around. 491 00:29:43,960 --> 00:29:46,720 Whoa, whoa. Wh-- Where is this coming from? 492 00:29:47,640 --> 00:29:49,840 I can't do this anymore, Niall. 493 00:29:49,920 --> 00:29:52,080 I have three kids to look out for. 494 00:29:52,160 --> 00:29:53,720 I can't handle one more. 495 00:29:56,360 --> 00:29:59,360 -Please don't visit us anymore. -♪ (SOMBER MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 496 00:30:21,280 --> 00:30:24,080 -(DOOR CREAKS OPEN) -♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ 497 00:30:32,880 --> 00:30:33,880 What happened? 498 00:30:34,640 --> 00:30:35,880 Gay stuff? 499 00:30:35,920 --> 00:30:37,560 Don't say "gay stuff," Mum. 500 00:30:39,440 --> 00:30:40,920 Well, come on, what was it? 501 00:30:43,920 --> 00:30:44,920 Gay stuff. 502 00:30:47,440 --> 00:30:49,680 I was caught in the library toilet having sex with a man. 503 00:30:49,760 --> 00:30:51,160 And now, the manager's threatening 504 00:30:51,200 --> 00:30:52,880 to upload the video unless I pay him off. 505 00:30:53,560 --> 00:30:55,240 Which library? 506 00:30:55,320 --> 00:30:56,480 Clyde Park Library. 507 00:30:56,560 --> 00:30:58,840 Jesus, Niall! They do school trips there. 508 00:30:58,920 --> 00:31:01,880 -What's your excuse this time? -I was just exploring myself. 509 00:31:01,960 --> 00:31:03,920 Exploring yourself? In a library? 510 00:31:04,000 --> 00:31:05,280 Yeah, it's not as crazy as it sounds. 511 00:31:05,360 --> 00:31:07,040 Oh, I don't know about that, Niall. 512 00:31:07,120 --> 00:31:10,080 I mean, would you bring a book to a fucking brothel? 513 00:31:11,120 --> 00:31:12,960 Look, I get that it's hard for you to understand, 514 00:31:13,040 --> 00:31:14,880 but I'm almost there in terms of figuring myself out. 515 00:31:14,920 --> 00:31:15,960 LORI: Are you now? 516 00:31:16,040 --> 00:31:18,680 You got caught shagging a man in a library ten yards 517 00:31:18,720 --> 00:31:19,920 from where they stock Peppa Pig! 518 00:31:20,000 --> 00:31:22,600 Great to hear you're almost there! 519 00:31:22,680 --> 00:31:25,440 (SCOFFS) What's it gonna take to push you over the edge, then? 520 00:31:25,520 --> 00:31:28,120 A fucking intergenerational gangbang? 521 00:31:28,200 --> 00:31:29,840 You're insulting my struggles here, Mum. 522 00:31:29,920 --> 00:31:33,240 I'm insulting my struggles. They're my struggles, too. 523 00:31:34,600 --> 00:31:37,280 At least you're the one cumming. Jesus Christ. 524 00:31:40,560 --> 00:31:41,760 What do you need? 525 00:31:50,360 --> 00:31:52,520 -Two grand. -Impossible. 526 00:31:52,600 --> 00:31:54,320 I'm a social worker. I couldn't get you it 527 00:31:54,360 --> 00:31:55,840 if I robbed all the people I work with. 528 00:31:55,920 --> 00:31:57,960 -You don't have a pot somewhere? -I used the pot. 529 00:31:58,040 --> 00:32:00,120 I used the pot the last time you had a breakdown 530 00:32:00,200 --> 00:32:01,520 when you needed to go into the madhouse. 531 00:32:01,600 --> 00:32:03,600 Hospital, Mum. It was a hospital. 532 00:32:03,640 --> 00:32:06,600 A hospital is for arms and legs. It was a madhouse. 533 00:32:06,680 --> 00:32:08,880 You sat around in circles talking about God. 534 00:32:08,960 --> 00:32:10,720 You don't get much madder than that! 535 00:32:10,800 --> 00:32:13,000 Enough of the jokes, Mum! I need money. 536 00:32:13,040 --> 00:32:14,640 I'm not ready for the public to think I'm gay! 537 00:32:14,720 --> 00:32:17,280 Then stop having sex in it. There's your answer. 538 00:32:17,360 --> 00:32:18,560 Mum, I am begging you, please. 539 00:32:18,640 --> 00:32:20,040 Surely you know someone that can help? 540 00:32:20,120 --> 00:32:21,160 (SIGHS) 541 00:32:22,320 --> 00:32:24,000 I do, but you won't like it. 542 00:32:24,720 --> 00:32:26,760 ♪ (TENSE MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 543 00:32:26,840 --> 00:32:28,160 Ruben? 544 00:32:28,840 --> 00:32:29,920 Are you serious? 545 00:32:31,120 --> 00:32:32,880 How can you even ask me that? 546 00:32:32,960 --> 00:32:34,680 After what he's done, putting me in this position! 547 00:32:34,760 --> 00:32:37,960 Oh, yeah? He put you in a public toilet, did he? 548 00:32:38,000 --> 00:32:40,400 I suppose he pulled your cock out your pants, too! 549 00:32:40,480 --> 00:32:42,000 I am talking about the turning point, 550 00:32:42,080 --> 00:32:44,360 the-- the-- the-- the seed of all of my issues. 551 00:32:44,440 --> 00:32:45,440 Oh, the seed. 552 00:32:45,480 --> 00:32:47,920 You're always talking about the seed, aren't you? 553 00:32:48,000 --> 00:32:50,480 First it was Dad, after Dad it was Maura, 554 00:32:50,520 --> 00:32:51,880 after that it was Ruben, 555 00:32:51,960 --> 00:32:54,760 then it was the court case and the Oxford elite, 556 00:32:54,840 --> 00:32:56,200 and now we're back to Ruben again. 557 00:32:56,280 --> 00:32:58,120 Great! Glad you see it so clearly. 558 00:32:58,200 --> 00:32:59,680 Turns out your glasses have been on your face 559 00:32:59,760 --> 00:33:00,840 this whole time, too! 560 00:33:01,640 --> 00:33:03,360 ♪ (MUSIC BUILDING) ♪ 561 00:33:03,400 --> 00:33:07,560 (SIGHS) See, this is your problem. 562 00:33:07,640 --> 00:33:09,960 You are too busy blaming everyone else 563 00:33:10,000 --> 00:33:11,000 for your issues 564 00:33:11,080 --> 00:33:12,960 because it's easier to point the finger 565 00:33:13,040 --> 00:33:14,160 than turn it back on yourself! 566 00:33:14,240 --> 00:33:16,760 You're acting like my breakdown was my fault! 567 00:33:16,840 --> 00:33:19,840 It was! You made yourself sick. 568 00:33:19,920 --> 00:33:22,160 "Mum, was I right to tell the truth on the stand? 569 00:33:22,240 --> 00:33:25,800 Mum, I had to, didn't I?" You became obsessed with it. 570 00:33:25,880 --> 00:33:27,440 Nothing I said would help. 571 00:33:27,520 --> 00:33:30,120 -I was ill! -You were self-involved! 572 00:33:32,400 --> 00:33:36,200 Now, as far as I can see, you are out of options here. 573 00:33:36,280 --> 00:33:38,160 No doubt about it. 574 00:33:38,200 --> 00:33:41,480 So, either you let me ask him for money, 575 00:33:41,560 --> 00:33:44,080 and I will disguise it by saying it's for me... 576 00:33:44,160 --> 00:33:45,480 (SIGHS) 577 00:33:46,920 --> 00:33:49,160 ...or you can face the music on your own this time, 578 00:33:49,240 --> 00:33:50,800 because I won't be helping. 579 00:33:52,280 --> 00:33:53,520 Wait a minute. 580 00:33:56,920 --> 00:33:58,480 Have you done this before? 581 00:33:58,560 --> 00:34:00,080 Well... 582 00:34:00,120 --> 00:34:02,040 You've used his money to pay for things for me? 583 00:34:02,120 --> 00:34:03,240 (SIGHS) Well, of course. 584 00:34:03,320 --> 00:34:04,720 Where did you think it was all coming from? 585 00:34:04,760 --> 00:34:05,840 Well, you remortgaged the house. 586 00:34:05,920 --> 00:34:07,040 I thought you had stuff left over. 587 00:34:08,760 --> 00:34:09,800 I mean... 588 00:34:12,760 --> 00:34:14,080 What else has he paid for? 589 00:34:15,800 --> 00:34:16,960 A lot of things. 590 00:34:17,000 --> 00:34:18,760 (GASPS) My bedsit? 591 00:34:18,800 --> 00:34:20,199 ♪ (MUSIC RISING) ♪ 592 00:34:20,239 --> 00:34:21,320 Yes. 593 00:34:22,360 --> 00:34:24,320 -My car? -Yes. 594 00:34:24,400 --> 00:34:25,880 -My therapy? -LORI: Yes. 595 00:34:25,960 --> 00:34:27,480 The therapy I use to talk about him? 596 00:34:27,560 --> 00:34:29,120 Yes, love, everything. 597 00:34:29,199 --> 00:34:31,520 Your clothes, your Christmas presents. 598 00:34:31,600 --> 00:34:33,920 Converting your bedroom into an adult's room 599 00:34:34,000 --> 00:34:36,199 so you can come back every time you have a breakdown. 600 00:34:36,280 --> 00:34:37,360 Oh, is that right, is it? 601 00:34:37,440 --> 00:34:39,320 Well, I hope he accepts fucking refunds! 602 00:34:39,400 --> 00:34:42,360 Oh, Niall! Wait! Niall! 603 00:34:43,040 --> 00:34:44,120 Wait! 604 00:34:45,960 --> 00:34:49,199 -Niall! -I don't fucking need him! 605 00:34:49,280 --> 00:34:51,560 -Stop this! -This clock? 606 00:34:51,600 --> 00:34:53,480 -Did you buy it with his money? -Yes. 607 00:34:53,560 --> 00:34:54,560 Done. 608 00:34:54,639 --> 00:34:55,880 -(QUIETLY) Jesus! -(CLOCK THUDS) 609 00:34:55,960 --> 00:34:58,040 -This CD player? -This is ridiculous. 610 00:34:58,080 --> 00:34:59,400 (SHOUTING) Did he buy the CD player? 611 00:34:59,440 --> 00:35:00,920 -Yes, he bought it! -Fine! 612 00:35:02,200 --> 00:35:05,760 This... This signed Harrison Ford poster? 613 00:35:05,840 --> 00:35:07,440 -♪ (MUSIC FALLING) ♪ -Yes, Niall. 614 00:35:07,520 --> 00:35:08,640 Really? 615 00:35:09,760 --> 00:35:11,000 He bought the poster? 616 00:35:11,080 --> 00:35:12,240 Yes, Niall. 617 00:35:13,520 --> 00:35:15,440 -Okay. That's fine. -♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ 618 00:35:17,880 --> 00:35:18,960 (POSTER THUDS) 619 00:35:20,400 --> 00:35:23,040 -No. You know what? Fuck this. -LORI: Stop! 620 00:35:23,120 --> 00:35:24,200 You're out of control! 621 00:35:24,280 --> 00:35:25,800 You don't know what you've done! 622 00:35:25,880 --> 00:35:28,440 -You've made me his bitch! -Oh my God! 623 00:35:28,520 --> 00:35:30,240 -You're losing your mind! -Well, good. 624 00:35:30,280 --> 00:35:31,440 If Ruben's anything to go by, 625 00:35:31,520 --> 00:35:34,520 perhaps you'll start paying me some attention! (PANTS) 626 00:35:39,560 --> 00:35:41,800 (SOBBING) I hate him. I fucking hate him. 627 00:35:41,880 --> 00:35:43,920 -No, you don't. -NIALL: I do. 628 00:35:44,000 --> 00:35:47,160 -I'm his bitch! I'm his bitch! -Hey. 629 00:35:47,240 --> 00:35:51,000 -(NIALL PANTING, SNIFFLING) -Come here. 630 00:35:51,080 --> 00:35:53,040 You are nobody's bitch, okay? 631 00:35:55,440 --> 00:35:57,280 ♪ (SOMBER MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 632 00:35:57,360 --> 00:35:58,840 (BREATHING SHAKILY) 633 00:36:00,840 --> 00:36:03,000 I sometimes wish he would just kill me, you know? 634 00:36:06,560 --> 00:36:08,360 Put me out my bastard misery. 635 00:36:11,160 --> 00:36:12,720 He doesn't need to. 636 00:36:13,920 --> 00:36:16,360 You're doing such a good job of it yourself. 637 00:36:20,520 --> 00:36:22,960 I have lost sleep over you, Niall. 638 00:36:24,360 --> 00:36:26,400 I keep thinking I'll wake up one day 639 00:36:26,480 --> 00:36:28,600 to find you've taken too much, 640 00:36:28,680 --> 00:36:30,400 or contracted HIV... 641 00:36:31,880 --> 00:36:33,200 or done a Maura. 642 00:36:36,280 --> 00:36:39,960 I think you need to move back in here and calm yourself a bit. 643 00:36:40,920 --> 00:36:42,040 Meet someone. 644 00:36:42,120 --> 00:36:45,280 They don't have to be perfect, they just have to be steady. 645 00:36:45,320 --> 00:36:48,800 Settle down. In life. In yourself. 646 00:36:48,880 --> 00:36:50,600 Give up these silly writing dreams. 647 00:36:50,680 --> 00:36:52,320 They're not doing you any good. 648 00:36:53,640 --> 00:36:54,680 I can't. 649 00:36:55,400 --> 00:36:56,480 You can. 650 00:36:58,120 --> 00:37:01,760 One of the most lethal acts of self-harm you can commit 651 00:37:01,840 --> 00:37:03,400 is convincing yourself 652 00:37:03,440 --> 00:37:05,560 you're worthy of a higher purpose. 653 00:37:07,400 --> 00:37:09,160 You were published five years ago. 654 00:37:09,240 --> 00:37:11,280 You sold less than 100 copies. 655 00:37:12,800 --> 00:37:15,760 You live in a bedsit in a shitty part of town. 656 00:37:17,400 --> 00:37:20,040 Don't make me tell you to get a job, Niall. 657 00:37:22,760 --> 00:37:24,360 At least have the self-respect 658 00:37:24,440 --> 00:37:26,680 to land on the conclusion yourself. 659 00:37:27,840 --> 00:37:30,960 ♪ (SOMBER MUSIC CONTINUES) ♪ 660 00:37:52,680 --> 00:37:54,200 (CAR ENGINE APPROACHING) 661 00:37:59,400 --> 00:38:02,000 ♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ 662 00:38:05,320 --> 00:38:08,040 ♪ (SUSPENSEFUL MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 663 00:38:15,120 --> 00:38:16,440 RUBEN: Hey. Come on. 664 00:38:16,480 --> 00:38:18,040 Fuck all this stuff, let's get inside. 665 00:38:18,120 --> 00:38:19,400 Lemme get that. 666 00:38:19,440 --> 00:38:23,520 (MONA SHIELS LAUGHS, SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY) 667 00:38:23,600 --> 00:38:26,640 -(RUBEN SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY) -(MONA LAUGHING) 668 00:38:29,640 --> 00:38:30,640 (DOOR CLOSES) 669 00:38:42,400 --> 00:38:45,400 ♪ (MUSIC BUILDING) ♪ 670 00:38:54,520 --> 00:38:56,000 ♪ (MUSIC INTENSIFYING) ♪ 671 00:39:22,480 --> 00:39:25,480 ♪ (JARRING DISCORDANT MUSIC OVERLAPPING) ♪ 672 00:39:46,160 --> 00:39:48,920 -♪ (MUSIC STOPS ABRUPTLY) ♪ -(CAR ALARM BLARING) 673 00:39:51,160 --> 00:39:52,200 (QUIETLY) Oh, shit! 674 00:39:54,160 --> 00:39:55,400 (PANTS) 675 00:39:55,480 --> 00:39:57,440 ♪ (LOW TENSE MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 676 00:39:57,520 --> 00:40:00,360 RUBEN: Hey! Oi! Get back! 677 00:40:00,440 --> 00:40:02,920 -Get back here! Hey! -(PANTS) 678 00:40:03,000 --> 00:40:04,960 RUBEN: I can fucking see you! 679 00:40:05,040 --> 00:40:08,720 (SCREAMS) Get back, you little fucking shit. Hey! 680 00:40:10,920 --> 00:40:13,000 Hey! Get back here! 681 00:40:14,960 --> 00:40:16,840 -(RUBEN PANTS) -(YELPS, GROANS) 682 00:40:16,920 --> 00:40:19,040 (GASPS, GROANS) 683 00:40:20,000 --> 00:40:23,400 (GRUNTING) 684 00:40:24,200 --> 00:40:26,920 (PANTING) 685 00:40:27,000 --> 00:40:29,680 RUBEN: Hey! Where the fuck are you? 686 00:40:33,680 --> 00:40:35,280 Yeah, I can fucking hear you! 687 00:40:36,880 --> 00:40:38,600 Hey! Hey! 688 00:40:39,840 --> 00:40:42,200 -♪ (MUSIC STOPS) ♪ -(BREATHING HEAVILY) 689 00:40:42,280 --> 00:40:43,720 -(WOOD CREAKS) -(GASPS) 690 00:40:47,360 --> 00:40:50,640 ♪ (LOW TENSE MUSIC RESUMES) ♪ 691 00:40:50,720 --> 00:40:54,400 -(RUBEN GRUNTING) -(FENCE RATTLING) 692 00:40:56,680 --> 00:40:58,200 -(LOUD THUD) -(RUBEN GROANS) 693 00:41:00,000 --> 00:41:03,280 -(BREATHING SHAKILY) -(FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING) 694 00:41:03,360 --> 00:41:06,040 (RUBEN GRUNTING SOFTLY) 695 00:41:26,600 --> 00:41:27,800 (NIALL EXHALES SHAKILY) 696 00:41:43,360 --> 00:41:45,800 ♪ (OMINOUS MUSICAL STING) ♪ 697 00:41:46,360 --> 00:41:49,360 (BREATHING SHAKILY) 698 00:41:52,320 --> 00:41:55,840 (FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING) 699 00:41:58,600 --> 00:42:01,200 -(BANGING ON DOOR) -♪ (INTENSE SINISTER MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 700 00:42:05,000 --> 00:42:06,920 -NEIGHBOR: Oi! -♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ 701 00:42:07,000 --> 00:42:08,680 NEIGHBOR: What are you doing? 702 00:42:08,760 --> 00:42:11,880 RUBEN: Oh, sorry, I, uh, I kicked my ball in here. 703 00:42:11,960 --> 00:42:15,120 It's, uh... It's Ruben from down the road. 704 00:42:15,200 --> 00:42:17,680 NEIGHBOR: Oh, yes. Hello, dear. 705 00:42:17,720 --> 00:42:21,040 Sorry, I didn't recognize you with your top off. 706 00:42:21,120 --> 00:42:23,760 Here, I'll let you out the front of the house. 707 00:42:23,840 --> 00:42:25,720 You can get your ball back tomorrow. 708 00:42:31,200 --> 00:42:33,120 (PANTING LOUDLY) 709 00:42:50,800 --> 00:42:53,520 (PANTS) 710 00:42:54,680 --> 00:42:56,000 (KEYS JANGLING) 711 00:42:57,840 --> 00:42:59,200 (CAR ENGINE STARTS) 712 00:43:00,440 --> 00:43:03,440 (CONTINUES PANTING) 713 00:43:09,280 --> 00:43:12,320 (CAR ENGINE REVVING) 714 00:43:12,400 --> 00:43:15,040 ♪ (STIRRING INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 715 00:43:15,920 --> 00:43:18,920 ♪ (FEMALE VOICE HARMONIZING) ♪ 716 00:43:41,120 --> 00:43:42,200 (GASPS) 717 00:43:42,240 --> 00:43:44,240 (SOUND ECHOING) 718 00:43:44,320 --> 00:43:46,400 ♪ (MUSIC FADES) ♪ 719 00:43:50,160 --> 00:43:53,400 ♪ (UNEASY MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 720 00:44:15,560 --> 00:44:16,600 (GROANS) 721 00:44:18,960 --> 00:44:21,560 ♪ (OMINOUS MUSICAL STING) ♪ 722 00:44:21,640 --> 00:44:24,640 ♪ (LOW TENSE MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 723 00:44:27,600 --> 00:44:28,600 Don't move. 724 00:44:30,400 --> 00:44:31,960 Don't make a fucking sound. 725 00:44:33,680 --> 00:44:35,920 -(WHISPERS) Ruben, please-- -What did I just say? 726 00:44:39,640 --> 00:44:41,120 Are you going to kill me, Ruben? 727 00:44:42,320 --> 00:44:44,160 Is that it? 'Cause you shouldn't. 728 00:44:44,200 --> 00:44:45,560 You have your whole life ahead of you. 729 00:44:45,640 --> 00:44:47,320 Don't you talk about my life. 730 00:44:48,360 --> 00:44:49,600 Not after what you did to it. 731 00:44:49,680 --> 00:44:51,520 Oh, come on, Ruben. This is ridiculous. 732 00:44:51,600 --> 00:44:55,400 -I mean, what's it been now? -Fourteen years, seven months, 733 00:44:56,520 --> 00:44:57,920 23 days. 734 00:44:58,680 --> 00:44:59,720 You've been counting, have you? 735 00:44:59,800 --> 00:45:01,280 You're damn right I've been counting. 736 00:45:05,320 --> 00:45:06,600 So, what is this? 737 00:45:09,600 --> 00:45:11,080 What are you looking for here, huh? 738 00:45:12,880 --> 00:45:14,680 -Revenge? -Revenge? 739 00:45:16,480 --> 00:45:17,560 Now, there's an idea. 740 00:45:17,640 --> 00:45:19,840 Ruben, please, this isn't right. We should just stay apart. 741 00:45:19,920 --> 00:45:22,000 You have your own life to worry about now and I have mine. 742 00:45:22,080 --> 00:45:24,720 That's why you were in my driveway, was it? 743 00:45:24,800 --> 00:45:26,840 That's why you scared... (SHOUTS) ...my wife... 744 00:45:28,560 --> 00:45:30,040 (IN NORMAL VOICE) ...in the dead of the night? 745 00:45:30,120 --> 00:45:31,240 I wasn't on your driveway. 746 00:45:31,320 --> 00:45:33,080 -I was just passing through. -RUBEN: Oh, yeah? 747 00:45:37,640 --> 00:45:38,880 Explain this, then. 748 00:45:39,640 --> 00:45:42,640 ♪ (MUSIC BUILDING) ♪ 749 00:45:47,880 --> 00:45:49,640 Explain it, you little rat... 750 00:45:51,520 --> 00:45:53,560 or I'll twist it up your fucking arse without lube. 751 00:45:53,640 --> 00:45:54,640 All right, Ruben! 752 00:45:56,760 --> 00:45:58,240 I didn't know it was your driveway. 753 00:45:58,320 --> 00:45:59,800 -Honestly, I didn't-- -Have it your way, then. 754 00:45:59,880 --> 00:46:01,720 -You fucking little fucking rat! -Jesus! Fuck's sake! 755 00:46:01,800 --> 00:46:03,320 RUBEN: Hey, hey, this is what you came back for? 756 00:46:03,400 --> 00:46:04,880 Wasn't it, Bambi, hey? This is what you wanted, 757 00:46:04,960 --> 00:46:05,920 -isn't it? -(SCREAMING) Help! 758 00:46:06,000 --> 00:46:07,320 -Fucking shut the fuck up. -(MUFFLED) Help! 759 00:46:07,400 --> 00:46:09,880 Shut the fuck up. Shut up, you little fucking rat. 760 00:46:09,920 --> 00:46:11,520 Trying to take something from me, were you? 761 00:46:11,600 --> 00:46:14,000 Hey! Hey! Come here, you little fucking rat. 762 00:46:14,080 --> 00:46:15,360 -(WHIMPERS) No! -RUBEN: Yes! 763 00:46:15,440 --> 00:46:17,520 -Hey, this is what you've always wanted from me? -Don't, please! 764 00:46:17,560 --> 00:46:19,240 -Isn't it, Bambi? Yeah? Yes! -(NIALL SCREAMS) 765 00:46:19,320 --> 00:46:20,760 -RUBEN: Come on, then. Hey? -(MUFFLED SCREAM) 766 00:46:20,840 --> 00:46:22,560 RUBEN: Are you ready for this, you little fucking rat? 767 00:46:22,640 --> 00:46:24,640 -(NIALL CONTINUES SCREAMING) -(RUBEN GRUNTS) 768 00:46:24,720 --> 00:46:26,280 -Help! Just wait. -RUBEN: Shut the fuck up! 769 00:46:26,360 --> 00:46:28,040 -Shut-- Shut the fuck up! -Wait. Stop. I'll tell you. 770 00:46:28,120 --> 00:46:30,800 I'll tell you. I'll tell you! Wait, I was angry! 771 00:46:30,840 --> 00:46:33,560 (PANTS) I wanted to take something from you to... 772 00:46:33,600 --> 00:46:35,760 -to get a win, you know? -A win? 773 00:46:35,840 --> 00:46:37,880 Don't you have enough wins, you fuck? 774 00:46:37,960 --> 00:46:40,200 Taking my life not enough, you wanted a piece of my car as well? 775 00:46:40,280 --> 00:46:41,200 Well, no, no, I didn't-- 776 00:46:41,280 --> 00:46:42,920 I rotted in a prison for over a decade 777 00:46:43,000 --> 00:46:45,200 -because of you. (GRUNTS) -No, no, fuck! Wait! 778 00:46:45,280 --> 00:46:46,280 Just... Ruben! 779 00:46:46,360 --> 00:46:47,720 -(GRUNTS) -Look, I'll talk! 780 00:46:47,800 --> 00:46:49,600 No, wait! Ruben... Ruben, please, I'll talk. 781 00:46:49,680 --> 00:46:51,120 I'll do anything you want. 782 00:46:51,160 --> 00:46:52,720 I'll beg for forgiveness if that's what you want. 783 00:46:52,800 --> 00:46:54,720 -Just don't do this, okay? -(PANTS) 784 00:46:59,960 --> 00:47:01,840 (BREATHING SHAKILY) 785 00:47:07,440 --> 00:47:08,640 Why'd you do it? 786 00:47:09,800 --> 00:47:11,400 Ruben, it was 14 years ago. 787 00:47:11,440 --> 00:47:13,760 Why'd you fucking do it? 788 00:47:15,760 --> 00:47:18,280 I guess I felt I owed it to justice to tell the truth. 789 00:47:18,360 --> 00:47:19,400 Justice? 790 00:47:20,360 --> 00:47:22,040 Justice is letting a recently diagnosed 791 00:47:22,120 --> 00:47:25,720 cancer patient watch her son go the clink? 792 00:47:25,760 --> 00:47:26,960 I felt like it at the time. 793 00:47:27,040 --> 00:47:29,080 RUBEN: No, I don't think it had anything to do with justice. 794 00:47:30,360 --> 00:47:32,800 I think you couldn't stand to see me doing well. 795 00:47:32,880 --> 00:47:34,880 -You were bitter. -Bitter? I was off to Oxford. 796 00:47:34,960 --> 00:47:36,400 What did I have to be bitter about? 797 00:47:36,480 --> 00:47:38,400 My real life. Your fucking fake one. 798 00:47:38,440 --> 00:47:40,600 Living in my shadow. 799 00:47:40,680 --> 00:47:42,840 You wanted me out of the way so you could flourish. 800 00:47:44,560 --> 00:47:45,640 How's it been in my absence, eh? 801 00:47:45,720 --> 00:47:48,520 Flying, are you? You little fucking cuck! 802 00:47:50,160 --> 00:47:51,880 Or did you realize the hard way, 803 00:47:51,920 --> 00:47:54,040 when you try and walk in my boots, 804 00:47:54,120 --> 00:47:55,960 they're always gonna slip off at the heel? 805 00:47:58,760 --> 00:48:01,120 Ah! (CHUCKLES) You didn't like that, did you? 806 00:48:01,200 --> 00:48:02,960 (GRUNTS) 807 00:48:03,000 --> 00:48:05,600 You know, it kills you, doesn't it? 808 00:48:05,680 --> 00:48:06,960 To know that even in my absence, 809 00:48:07,040 --> 00:48:08,200 with all the fucking opportunities 810 00:48:08,280 --> 00:48:11,680 in the world at your feet, all you've done is kick up dust. 811 00:48:11,760 --> 00:48:14,280 While I, with my back against the wall 812 00:48:14,360 --> 00:48:15,640 and a glass ceiling above my head, 813 00:48:15,720 --> 00:48:21,200 and a fucking army in my way, clamber over you to the top. 814 00:48:21,280 --> 00:48:22,760 I don't know what you're talking about, Ruben. 815 00:48:22,840 --> 00:48:23,760 I'm doing just fine. 816 00:48:23,840 --> 00:48:25,960 Oh, I know from your mum that's not the case. 817 00:48:26,960 --> 00:48:29,320 As she comes begging for money 818 00:48:29,400 --> 00:48:31,240 to solve all your pathetic little problems, 819 00:48:31,320 --> 00:48:34,560 your printing costs, your therapy. 820 00:48:34,640 --> 00:48:37,360 -She told you that, did she? -Oh, she told me everything. 821 00:48:37,400 --> 00:48:40,680 You know, I have to bite my lip from laughing 822 00:48:40,760 --> 00:48:43,040 as I hand over the money. You should see me. 823 00:48:43,120 --> 00:48:45,120 "Well... Well, Ms. Kennedy, 824 00:48:45,200 --> 00:48:47,400 I hope he gets himself back on his feet soon." 825 00:48:47,480 --> 00:48:51,120 (CHUCKLES) I mean, imagine it. 826 00:48:51,200 --> 00:48:54,720 I go to prison for 13 years, and you go to Oxford, 827 00:48:54,800 --> 00:48:56,960 and I'm the one lending you money. 828 00:48:58,480 --> 00:49:02,000 And you wonder if I'm here for revenge. 829 00:49:04,240 --> 00:49:06,800 Shit, son. Don't be ridiculous. 830 00:49:08,400 --> 00:49:09,640 It's already mine. 831 00:49:11,200 --> 00:49:12,600 Is that what you want, is it? 832 00:49:12,680 --> 00:49:14,520 Me to just admit that you're doing better than me? 833 00:49:14,600 --> 00:49:17,120 Well, you can have it. You're doing better than me, and I hate it. 834 00:49:17,200 --> 00:49:20,400 I hate that the scum always sits at the top of the water. 835 00:49:20,480 --> 00:49:23,040 But no, I'm not bitter. I'm gleeful. 836 00:49:23,120 --> 00:49:25,240 Because when you inevitably fuck it up, 837 00:49:25,280 --> 00:49:26,960 and you will fuck it up, 838 00:49:27,040 --> 00:49:29,600 I'll be the one grabbing the popcorn, watching you fall. 839 00:49:29,680 --> 00:49:31,720 -(SCREAMS) -(GRUNTS) 840 00:49:31,800 --> 00:49:34,120 -(COUGHS) -♪ (FOREBODING MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 841 00:49:34,200 --> 00:49:35,680 Say it. 842 00:49:35,720 --> 00:49:37,720 -Say you were bitter. -No chance. 843 00:49:37,760 --> 00:49:38,920 I wasn't bitter in the slightest. 844 00:49:39,000 --> 00:49:40,120 I did what was right 845 00:49:40,160 --> 00:49:41,440 and you can beat me all you want. 846 00:49:41,520 --> 00:49:43,560 -I'll never admit it. (GROANS) -(YELLS) 847 00:49:43,640 --> 00:49:46,920 -(COUGHING) -♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ 848 00:49:48,040 --> 00:49:49,760 (IN HOARSE VOICE) Okay. 849 00:49:49,800 --> 00:49:52,760 I admit I was bitter. Please don't hit me again. 850 00:49:52,800 --> 00:49:57,000 Fuck! I was bitter, okay? I was bitter. 851 00:49:59,080 --> 00:50:00,600 (GROANS) 852 00:50:02,880 --> 00:50:04,280 Bitter that you put me in that position 853 00:50:04,360 --> 00:50:05,480 in the first place. 854 00:50:05,520 --> 00:50:07,240 ♪ (LOW TENSE MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 855 00:50:07,280 --> 00:50:09,560 Bitter that you kept doing the same old shit. 856 00:50:09,640 --> 00:50:13,280 Never learning, never growing, never accepting responsibility. 857 00:50:13,320 --> 00:50:15,440 Always smashing shit up and expecting others 858 00:50:15,520 --> 00:50:16,560 to pick up the pieces. 859 00:50:16,640 --> 00:50:18,360 Well, I wasn't gonna do it over the Alby stuff. 860 00:50:18,400 --> 00:50:20,120 Not when it put my freedom in danger. 861 00:50:21,360 --> 00:50:22,840 What would that teach you about life, anyway? 862 00:50:22,920 --> 00:50:25,840 Life? I don't need to learn about life, rat boy. 863 00:50:25,920 --> 00:50:27,920 -I wrote the fucking book on it. -(YELLS) How? 864 00:50:28,000 --> 00:50:32,240 You've done fuck all! You never applied yourself. 865 00:50:32,320 --> 00:50:35,120 You never got an education, or a degree, or a proper job. 866 00:50:35,200 --> 00:50:37,880 (CHUCKLING) I've never got a degree or a proper job? 867 00:50:37,920 --> 00:50:39,960 Why the fuck would I need to do that? 868 00:50:40,040 --> 00:50:43,480 I think you're forgetting, son. I don't need to work for status. 869 00:50:44,040 --> 00:50:45,720 I was born with it. 870 00:50:45,760 --> 00:50:48,840 I mean, why be a general manager or an academic 871 00:50:48,920 --> 00:50:50,360 when you're king of the fucking world? 872 00:50:50,400 --> 00:50:52,640 "King of the world." That's a joke. 873 00:50:52,720 --> 00:50:53,840 I'm not jealous of that. 874 00:50:53,920 --> 00:50:55,840 I'm jealous of the fact that you can so willfully think that 875 00:50:55,920 --> 00:50:58,000 -without irony. -Challenge me on it, then! 876 00:50:58,040 --> 00:51:01,000 Prove me wrong! I'm your fucking muse! 877 00:51:03,120 --> 00:51:06,360 I'm the reason you have meaning in your miserable life! 878 00:51:06,440 --> 00:51:10,200 Don't tell me you sit there telling people about that time 879 00:51:10,280 --> 00:51:12,720 you-- you-- you fucking aced your exams, 880 00:51:12,800 --> 00:51:14,680 or you smashed out your dissertation. 881 00:51:14,760 --> 00:51:17,520 No. No, you tell them about that time 882 00:51:17,600 --> 00:51:20,640 we egged that house, we slashed those car tires, 883 00:51:20,720 --> 00:51:25,400 we took mushrooms down the lake and saw the water shoot green. 884 00:51:25,480 --> 00:51:27,720 I'm the soundtrack to your greatest moments. 885 00:51:27,800 --> 00:51:29,000 And it pains you to know 886 00:51:29,080 --> 00:51:31,200 that all your achievements fill you with a void, 887 00:51:31,280 --> 00:51:32,840 whereas a smile from me fills you 888 00:51:32,920 --> 00:51:34,960 with all the fucking energy you need. 889 00:51:36,560 --> 00:51:38,240 You might be the painter, Niall, 890 00:51:39,600 --> 00:51:41,200 but I'm the rolling hills. 891 00:51:43,560 --> 00:51:46,720 So, you can point at my CV, my 13 years in prison, 892 00:51:46,800 --> 00:51:47,960 and all the bullet points you need 893 00:51:48,040 --> 00:51:49,680 to think you're better than me. 894 00:51:49,760 --> 00:51:53,160 But you know fine well, you'd do 40 years 895 00:51:53,240 --> 00:51:55,400 in a windowless fucking cell... 896 00:51:57,000 --> 00:51:59,080 just to walk in my shoes for the day. 897 00:52:02,520 --> 00:52:04,200 I mean, look at you. 898 00:52:04,240 --> 00:52:07,400 I went to the clink for over a decade, 899 00:52:07,440 --> 00:52:10,200 and you didn't even do something worthwhile with your life. 900 00:52:10,280 --> 00:52:12,840 You didn't even give me something to take from you when I got back out. 901 00:52:14,320 --> 00:52:16,120 And just as I stop thinking about you, 902 00:52:17,120 --> 00:52:19,600 just as I pull my life together, 903 00:52:19,680 --> 00:52:21,960 -you appear like a rat... -(WHIMPERS) 904 00:52:22,040 --> 00:52:23,480 ...on my driveway. 905 00:52:25,160 --> 00:52:30,400 How dare you appear like a rat on my driveway? 906 00:52:32,320 --> 00:52:33,840 Come on, Ruben, with all due respect, 907 00:52:33,920 --> 00:52:36,240 -you broke contact first. -How did I? 908 00:52:36,320 --> 00:52:37,800 You talked to my mum about Maura. 909 00:52:37,840 --> 00:52:39,680 -(SHOUTS) -(GRUNTS) 910 00:52:39,760 --> 00:52:41,960 You don't talk about my mother, all right? 911 00:52:42,040 --> 00:52:43,080 You don't mention her name. 912 00:52:43,160 --> 00:52:44,320 But that's what I'm talking about. 913 00:52:44,400 --> 00:52:46,720 You and Lori in cahoots behind my back for four years. 914 00:52:46,800 --> 00:52:48,280 She didn't even tell me Maura was sick! 915 00:52:48,360 --> 00:52:50,640 -(GRUNTS) -(YELLS) 916 00:52:52,040 --> 00:52:54,240 (GROANS) 917 00:52:54,960 --> 00:52:56,520 What did I just say? 918 00:52:56,560 --> 00:52:59,160 (PANTS) What? I'm saying... 919 00:52:59,240 --> 00:53:00,360 I'm saying I could have been there. 920 00:53:00,440 --> 00:53:03,520 Been there? Are you kidding me? 921 00:53:03,560 --> 00:53:04,960 She's half-brained because of you. 922 00:53:05,040 --> 00:53:06,160 Half-brained because of me? 923 00:53:06,240 --> 00:53:08,320 I haven't seen her in 14 years since the court case. 924 00:53:08,400 --> 00:53:09,920 Well, it started with that, didn't it? 925 00:53:10,000 --> 00:53:11,880 The separation from Lori not long after? 926 00:53:11,960 --> 00:53:14,320 Because they couldn't come to terms with what you did. 927 00:53:14,400 --> 00:53:16,400 -You fucking did that! -I did that? 928 00:53:16,480 --> 00:53:19,240 Or was it looking after a fucking animal for a child? 929 00:53:19,320 --> 00:53:20,840 Oh, you're talking real talk now. 930 00:53:20,920 --> 00:53:22,440 Yeah, well, what do you expect? You're blaming me 931 00:53:22,520 --> 00:53:23,560 for your mother's suicide attempt? 932 00:53:23,640 --> 00:53:26,080 Oh, spare me the self-pity, you little prick! 933 00:53:26,160 --> 00:53:27,920 She did it while I was in prison! 934 00:53:28,000 --> 00:53:29,920 I mean, I couldn't even get to her! 935 00:53:29,960 --> 00:53:31,760 I couldn't even phone! 936 00:53:32,440 --> 00:53:34,040 (SCREAMING) I mean, imagine it! 937 00:53:37,600 --> 00:53:39,480 So, if you don't want to take the blame for it... 938 00:53:41,040 --> 00:53:42,760 at least admit you wished it upon her. 939 00:53:43,800 --> 00:53:45,000 I didn't. 940 00:53:46,200 --> 00:53:47,720 She wished it upon you. 941 00:53:54,160 --> 00:53:55,760 You know what she used to call you? 942 00:53:57,320 --> 00:53:58,360 King Rat. 943 00:54:00,200 --> 00:54:01,200 You know why? 944 00:54:03,040 --> 00:54:04,480 Because you act like royalty... 945 00:54:05,520 --> 00:54:07,440 but you belong in the gutter. 946 00:54:07,520 --> 00:54:10,520 You're a gutter rat who looks in a mirror 947 00:54:11,000 --> 00:54:12,280 and sees a king. 948 00:54:14,000 --> 00:54:16,280 ♪ (TENSE MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 949 00:54:16,360 --> 00:54:18,080 -Is that right? -Yeah. 950 00:54:18,160 --> 00:54:20,320 So, come on, gutter rat, come back at me. 951 00:54:20,960 --> 00:54:22,160 I know you want to. 952 00:54:25,080 --> 00:54:27,200 Well, it's a little glass house, isn't it, Ruben? 953 00:54:29,280 --> 00:54:30,280 If I'm in the gutter, 954 00:54:30,320 --> 00:54:31,880 I hate to think of where you both ended up. 955 00:54:31,960 --> 00:54:34,160 Yes! That's what I'm talking about! 956 00:54:34,240 --> 00:54:35,680 Come on, more of that, please. 957 00:54:35,760 --> 00:54:38,320 The gutter is something you and your mum can only aspire to. 958 00:54:38,360 --> 00:54:39,480 Beautiful. Let's have it. Come on. 959 00:54:39,520 --> 00:54:40,960 The court case was convenient 960 00:54:41,040 --> 00:54:42,520 'cause she could draw an imaginary line 961 00:54:42,600 --> 00:54:43,560 between past and present 962 00:54:43,600 --> 00:54:44,880 and assuage her own responsibility 963 00:54:44,960 --> 00:54:46,480 in raising a fucking monster. 964 00:54:46,560 --> 00:54:47,840 "Oh, it's an illness," she would say, 965 00:54:47,920 --> 00:54:48,880 time and time again. 966 00:54:48,960 --> 00:54:50,880 "Oh, it's just an illness. He can't help it." 967 00:54:50,960 --> 00:54:52,840 But when on the fourth, or fifth, 968 00:54:52,920 --> 00:54:55,840 or even sixteenth time you stamp someone's head into the floor, 969 00:54:55,920 --> 00:54:58,840 does it stop being an illness and become some sick, sinister, 970 00:54:58,880 --> 00:55:00,880 fucking gleeful act of perverse violence? 971 00:55:00,960 --> 00:55:02,560 I've never once seen you show 972 00:55:02,640 --> 00:55:03,920 an ounce of remorse for what you did 973 00:55:04,000 --> 00:55:05,960 to that poor Alby boy, whose face, I hear, 974 00:55:06,040 --> 00:55:09,120 is still mangled, by the way. The callousness you possess 975 00:55:09,200 --> 00:55:10,840 is born straight out of your mother's heart. 976 00:55:10,920 --> 00:55:14,320 So, yeah, I hate her. I hate everything about her. 977 00:55:14,400 --> 00:55:16,520 I hate how she let you get away with near murder, 978 00:55:16,600 --> 00:55:19,040 but if I did anything minor, she was on me like a rash, 979 00:55:19,120 --> 00:55:21,400 turning my mother against me, squeezing the life out of me 980 00:55:21,480 --> 00:55:23,040 because I was her second-chance child, 981 00:55:23,120 --> 00:55:25,520 seeing as how she so royally fucked up the first! 982 00:55:26,600 --> 00:55:28,360 But I mean, I don't expect her to be anything less 983 00:55:28,440 --> 00:55:29,920 than blinded by you. 984 00:55:30,000 --> 00:55:33,120 I mean, you hit her enough times to forget, didn't you? 985 00:55:37,600 --> 00:55:39,960 And the worst part about all of this... (LAUGHS) 986 00:55:40,040 --> 00:55:42,920 ...is you are totally right. 987 00:55:43,000 --> 00:55:46,760 I would face 40 years in prison to walk in your shoes for a day. 988 00:55:47,600 --> 00:55:49,320 An hour even. 989 00:55:49,360 --> 00:55:51,280 To feel what it must be like to be you. 990 00:55:52,080 --> 00:55:53,560 To look the way you look. 991 00:55:54,840 --> 00:55:57,520 To fuck the way you fuck. To talk the way you talk. 992 00:55:57,600 --> 00:55:59,280 Hell, they can lock the door and throw away the key 993 00:55:59,360 --> 00:56:00,400 for all I care. 994 00:56:00,480 --> 00:56:02,800 Because I would be happy to lie back on the bed 995 00:56:02,880 --> 00:56:05,440 and feel what it must feel like to be the center of the universe 996 00:56:05,480 --> 00:56:07,200 for a change rather than some cunt 997 00:56:07,240 --> 00:56:08,800 standing in the queue outside. 998 00:56:10,280 --> 00:56:13,160 I hate everything about you 999 00:56:13,240 --> 00:56:15,680 and the giant shadow you cast which seems to turn with the sun 1000 00:56:15,760 --> 00:56:17,160 whichever way I'm walking. 1001 00:56:18,200 --> 00:56:19,720 But that doesn't stop me... 1002 00:56:21,200 --> 00:56:23,640 wanting every bit of it. 1003 00:56:26,440 --> 00:56:28,640 So, yeah, I'm bitter. 1004 00:56:28,720 --> 00:56:30,960 -I'm bitter that I'm alone. -♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ 1005 00:56:31,760 --> 00:56:33,720 I'm bitter that I have no money. 1006 00:56:33,800 --> 00:56:35,960 (VOICE BREAKING) Bitter that no matter how hard I try, 1007 00:56:36,040 --> 00:56:38,440 how hard I work, sweat, and toil, 1008 00:56:38,520 --> 00:56:41,480 I just can't find the click that's gonna make me happy. 1009 00:56:43,240 --> 00:56:44,680 And I'm bitter that you went around 1010 00:56:44,720 --> 00:56:46,200 apologizing to people 1011 00:56:46,280 --> 00:56:48,680 and you didn't think about apologizing to me. 1012 00:56:51,400 --> 00:56:53,080 And I'm bitter that I'm being blackmailed 1013 00:56:53,120 --> 00:56:54,240 by some cunt. 1014 00:56:55,960 --> 00:56:57,240 I'm bitter that I can't pay him off 1015 00:56:57,320 --> 00:57:00,360 'cause I'm broke or threaten him because I'm too pussy. 1016 00:57:02,000 --> 00:57:03,920 And I'm bitter that I had the whole world 1017 00:57:04,000 --> 00:57:05,080 at my fingertips. 1018 00:57:05,160 --> 00:57:07,640 Scholarship, Oxford education, all of it. 1019 00:57:07,720 --> 00:57:10,160 And I squandered it all thinking about you. 1020 00:57:10,240 --> 00:57:11,360 What the fuck are you talking about? 1021 00:57:11,440 --> 00:57:12,560 I couldn't breathe. 1022 00:57:12,640 --> 00:57:15,000 I couldn't do fuck all 'cause my mind was still reeling 1023 00:57:15,080 --> 00:57:16,240 from that bastard court case. 1024 00:57:16,320 --> 00:57:17,560 I couldn't get it out of my mind. 1025 00:57:17,640 --> 00:57:19,080 Your words, your screaming as you left. 1026 00:57:19,160 --> 00:57:20,160 That you would make me ugly. 1027 00:57:20,240 --> 00:57:22,520 I've seen you make people ugly, Ruben. 1028 00:57:22,600 --> 00:57:24,080 I know what it means! 1029 00:57:26,920 --> 00:57:29,720 I lived in fear of you from that point on. 1030 00:57:29,760 --> 00:57:31,880 Just imagining all the things that you might do to me, 1031 00:57:31,960 --> 00:57:33,680 that you might tell one of your prison mates about me 1032 00:57:33,760 --> 00:57:36,200 and they would come looking for me when they got out. 1033 00:57:36,280 --> 00:57:37,400 I woke up in the night once, 1034 00:57:37,440 --> 00:57:39,320 convinced that you'd bugged the flat, 1035 00:57:39,400 --> 00:57:40,800 that you were monitoring my every move. 1036 00:57:40,880 --> 00:57:42,520 I started to sleep in the garden. 1037 00:57:42,600 --> 00:57:44,920 I wandered the streets pulling up phone wires. 1038 00:57:45,000 --> 00:57:46,400 ♪ (SOMBER MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 1039 00:57:47,760 --> 00:57:50,000 I went through about 30 pen lids, 1040 00:57:50,080 --> 00:57:51,880 swallowing them down whole 1041 00:57:51,920 --> 00:57:53,960 because I would chew on them when I wrote. 1042 00:57:54,040 --> 00:57:55,800 And throwing them away wasn't safe enough 1043 00:57:55,880 --> 00:57:57,320 because you might find them and use my DNA 1044 00:57:57,400 --> 00:58:00,400 to pin a murder on me. I ended up in a madhouse. 1045 00:58:00,480 --> 00:58:02,440 I had to have an operation on my gut. 1046 00:58:04,720 --> 00:58:05,760 Why? 1047 00:58:06,560 --> 00:58:08,560 Because I was telling the truth! 1048 00:58:11,200 --> 00:58:14,520 And then you appear, out of nowhere, 1049 00:58:14,600 --> 00:58:16,840 with a six-figure salary and a house 1050 00:58:16,880 --> 00:58:18,360 and a girl and a car. 1051 00:58:18,440 --> 00:58:21,520 How dare you appear out of nowhere 1052 00:58:21,600 --> 00:58:23,480 with a six-figure salary and a house 1053 00:58:23,560 --> 00:58:25,280 and a girl and a car? 1054 00:58:27,480 --> 00:58:29,880 So, just be safe in the knowledge 1055 00:58:29,960 --> 00:58:32,040 that when you're imagining the worst kind 1056 00:58:32,120 --> 00:58:33,280 of revenge for me, 1057 00:58:34,760 --> 00:58:36,320 nothing can come close to the damage 1058 00:58:36,400 --> 00:58:38,000 that I've unleashed on myself. 1059 00:58:39,000 --> 00:58:41,280 So, go ahead, Ruben, fucking kill me. 1060 00:58:42,000 --> 00:58:43,320 I don't give a fuck. 1061 00:58:46,160 --> 00:58:47,400 I'm already dead. 1062 00:58:47,480 --> 00:58:49,640 ♪ (EMOTIONAL MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 1063 00:58:53,240 --> 00:58:54,960 (BREATHES SHAKILY) 1064 00:59:13,240 --> 00:59:14,400 I didn't know any of this. 1065 00:59:17,840 --> 00:59:18,840 Yeah, well... 1066 00:59:20,400 --> 00:59:22,040 Your mum never said that part. 1067 00:59:23,440 --> 00:59:24,720 The part about the hospital. 1068 00:59:31,680 --> 00:59:34,080 It's good to know she still has some respect for me left. 1069 00:59:37,200 --> 00:59:38,400 Hmm. 1070 00:59:43,720 --> 00:59:45,560 You sound different. 1071 00:59:48,840 --> 00:59:50,000 You talk different. 1072 00:59:53,200 --> 00:59:55,400 I've done a lot of reading, Niall. 1073 00:59:55,440 --> 00:59:57,320 Oh, great. So, now you're cleverer than me too. 1074 00:59:57,400 --> 00:59:58,440 (LAUGHS) 1075 01:00:01,840 --> 01:00:03,000 (RUBEN CHUCKLES) 1076 01:00:04,280 --> 01:00:05,280 Yeah. 1077 01:00:10,080 --> 01:00:12,000 You're getting blackmailed? 1078 01:00:14,200 --> 01:00:15,320 Yes, sort of. 1079 01:00:16,800 --> 01:00:17,960 Do you know their name? 1080 01:00:18,760 --> 01:00:20,080 No, not like that. 1081 01:00:22,280 --> 01:00:23,360 What do you need? 1082 01:00:26,760 --> 01:00:27,840 Money. 1083 01:00:29,080 --> 01:00:30,200 I've got money. 1084 01:00:35,240 --> 01:00:36,680 What do you want in return? 1085 01:00:39,640 --> 01:00:40,920 An apology... 1086 01:00:42,120 --> 01:00:43,240 for what you did. 1087 01:00:50,960 --> 01:00:51,960 That's it? 1088 01:00:54,120 --> 01:00:55,200 It's a lot, Niall. 1089 01:00:56,520 --> 01:00:57,760 It's a hell of a lot. 1090 01:00:59,880 --> 01:01:02,840 (EXHALES DEEPLY) 1091 01:01:07,200 --> 01:01:08,200 I'm sorry. 1092 01:01:14,520 --> 01:01:15,600 Hmm. 1093 01:01:16,600 --> 01:01:19,040 (SIGHS) 1094 01:01:25,360 --> 01:01:26,440 Hmm. 1095 01:01:27,560 --> 01:01:28,760 (GULPS) 1096 01:01:32,960 --> 01:01:34,360 Well, I'm sorry too. 1097 01:01:42,720 --> 01:01:46,000 ♪ (EMOTIONAL MUSIC CONTINUES) ♪ 1098 01:01:54,720 --> 01:01:57,720 ♪ (MUSIC BUILDING) ♪ 1099 01:01:59,440 --> 01:02:00,880 -♪ (MUSIC SWELLS) ♪ -(RUBEN GRUNTS SOFTLY) 1100 01:02:02,680 --> 01:02:05,200 -(SCATTERED APPLAUSE) -(GRUNTS SOFTLY) 1101 01:02:05,240 --> 01:02:07,000 ♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ 1102 01:02:08,280 --> 01:02:09,800 Missed you, yeah? 1103 01:02:10,320 --> 01:02:11,440 Missed you. 1104 01:02:12,280 --> 01:02:14,840 Right, now, a proper toast. 1105 01:02:15,480 --> 01:02:17,440 Come on, Alby, stand. 1106 01:02:18,360 --> 01:02:19,480 Come on. 1107 01:02:30,120 --> 01:02:33,280 -♪ (STIRRING INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ -To the happy couple. 1108 01:02:35,200 --> 01:02:38,200 ♪ (FEMALE VOICE HARMONIZING) ♪ 1109 01:02:43,400 --> 01:02:44,840 RUBEN: On their special day. 1110 01:02:52,600 --> 01:02:54,880 At the start of a beautiful journey together. 1111 01:03:02,320 --> 01:03:03,440 Hand in hand. 1112 01:03:09,720 --> 01:03:10,800 Heart to heart. 1113 01:03:16,480 --> 01:03:17,920 Forever and ever. 1114 01:03:25,440 --> 01:03:26,600 Amen. 1115 01:03:29,960 --> 01:03:32,520 ♪ (MUSIC CONTINUES) ♪ 1116 01:04:02,280 --> 01:04:04,360 ♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪